Randomize

Random feeling
as Jakarta is washed by rain
and step by step I know that I will meet you again

I remember when we cuddled under the pouring rain
I remember when autumn breeze caress our veins
I remember when we watched the waves, the sun, the ocean

Random feeling
and you look always the same
my heart beats as it was again

Yet a different story is told
you are far, far out of reach
As what I have supposed to realize
After one, two, three years

I will never be good enough
Even I might have been a Goddess somewhere in some other space
Still, seeing you again waives me a bitter sense of loneliness

You are part of the past
when my inner willingness would love to drag you
"be part of my future smiles, my hope"
My whisper's gone

I miss being under the rain with you
I miss the silent moments before the sunrises or sunsets with you
will you be again there someday?

Randomizing my expectations
Maybe that's all I need
You are a random figure in my mind
Now


(but still, I miss you)

AW, one day in April 2007, when rain poured over Jakarta and life looked too random to comprehend